One of the most difficult times in a person’s life is the loss of a spouse. For Sheryl Sandberg, COO of Facebook and author of Lean In, her loss of Dave Goldberg, CEO of Survey Monkey was totally unexpected. Sandberg has two young daughters and her personal grief and also the sadness she has for your girls is a story that touches all of us. Here is an excerpt of her post on Facebook which will touch your heart:
“Today is the end of sheloshim for my beloved husband—the first thirty days. Judaism calls for a period of intense mourning known as shiva that lasts seven days after a loved one is buried. After shiva, most normal activities can be resumed, but it is the end of sheloshim that marks the completion of religious mourning for a spouse.
A childhood friend of mine who is now a rabbi recently told me that the most powerful one-line prayer he has ever read is: “Let me not die while I am still alive.” I would have never understood that prayer before losing Dave. Now I do.
I think when tragedy occurs, it presents a choice. You can give in to the void, the emptiness that fills your heart, your lungs, constricts your ability to think or even breathe. Or you can try to find meaning. These past thirty days, I have spent many of my moments lost in that void. And I know that many future moments will be consumed by the vast emptiness as well.
But when I can, I want to choose life and meaning.
And this is why I am writing: to mark the end of sheloshim and to give back some of what others have given to me. While the experience of grief is profoundly personal, the bravery of those who have shared their own experiences has helped pull me through. Some who opened their hearts were my closest friends.
I have lived thirty years in these thirty days. I am thirty years sadder. I feel like I am thirty years wiser.
I have learned to ask for help—and I have learned how much help I need. Until now, I have been the
I was talking to one of these friends about a father-child activity that Dave is not here to do. We came up with a plan to fill in for Dave. I cried to him, “But I want Dave. I want option A.” He put his arm around me and said, “Option A is not available. So let’s just kick the shit out of option B.”
Dave, to honor your memory and raise your children as they deserve to be raised, I promise to do all I can to kick the shit out of option B. And even though sheloshim has ended, I still mourn for option A. I will always mourn for option A. As Bono sang, “There is no end to grief . . . and there is no end to love.” I love you, Dave.”
Sometimes in life we have only option B and it is what we do with that option that will impact our families and those we love. Share your thoughts with us on our Facebook page. We really like hearing from you!